What truly is attraction?
It's really hard for me to understand why I'm into one thing and not another.
I don't really like the things most people are attracted to.
And the attraction you force yourself into because of one reason or another is something odd to me.
It's not even that I chose the things I like. They chose me. I never sat down and decided what to want, it just happened, and I found out about it after the fact.
So when I see someone convincing themselves to like something, to fit in, to be normal, I don't understand it. If attraction is something you can talk yourself into, then it isn't attraction. It's just performance.
Maybe that's the real thing I don't get. Not the attraction, the pretending. Being into the wrong thing, quietly, forever, seems easier than pretending to be into the right one.